• Sophie Ward

Day 15- Poetry Seen


Santa - you I thought I had seen,

I have never been mean,

I feel so much pain,

It doesn’t matter if I see sun or rain,

There is no way of aiding myself,

I feel like I will just get left on the shelf,

All the other toys sparkle and shine,

I just tell myself, ‘I’ll be fine,’

My body weak,

Relief I seek,

The night’s are bleak, 

From my eyes tears leak,

Santa, I thought this was the time for joy,

For all to enjoy,

Feeling cautious and unsteady,

Everyone else seems ready,

Their lights within shining bright,

They are quite a beautiful sight,

Mine feels dim,

My level of hope I try to keep filled up to the brim,

My legs radiate pain,

More cancelled plans- I can’t take the strain,

Heavy on my feet, 

I can’t take the heat,

Santa, I thought this was the season of love,

There is no white dove,

In our pockets we dig deep,

The dreams of better times don’t aid my sleep,

My energy is low,

I am very slow,

People laugh and run around,

You can’t even stand the sound,

You pray for your pain to lift, 

Or to finish just like a shift,

We aren’t so lucky today,

I am hurting in every way,

Santa- you I thought I had seen,

In my dreams maybe you had been,

I don’t want any presents this year you see,

But for pain to be kinder on me,

Snow may fall,

I want you to know I give it my all,

The harder days when I cry the most of all,

Are the days that make me want to get back up after the fall,

Maybe today is another task,

May as well fill up my hot walk flask,

It could be a long road ahead,

For now I must save my energy for fighting and rest my head,

Maybe I should thank you for this hardest day,

I felt like I was missing out on the fun in some way,

Yet you remind me how strong I must be,

To re-light the fire within me,

You are the star I have seen,

Today I thought the world on me was being terribly mean,

The hard days, 

Are secret gifts in many  ways,

The road is long,

We must keep strong.

S

Xoxo

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