Firstly sorry for the lack of blogs over my trip - I was having so much fun and so wrapped up in the madness that I hadn't even realised that it had been 11 days since I last blogged.
I have so much to tell you and fill you in on.
Firstly - Matthew and I had a blast and didn't want to come home. However the holiday was so tasking and we are both shattered and I was SOOOOOO ready for some fresh foods, home cooked foods. Those who follow my Instagram and Snapchat will have seen my majorly big paella dish last night and boy it was good. It was SO nice not to feel ill after dinner.
Everything there is fried, meat and cheese! All take-away fast foods too. No fresh healthy dishes. It was hard work - however I will fill you all in with that in my book - eeek. Which I have SO many ideas for, I have spent all night ( couldn't sleep ) since 2am planning the outline to my book and writing all my ideas down because my head was becoming jumbled with them. So excited and can't wait to get started on it all - which will be soon, as literally can't wait, it gets me too excited and pumped up. Already going to try a recipe a little later .. I can't contain myself. However it may be a tasking book as I have so much work I want to put into it - so bare with me time wise. As always though I will keep you up to date.
I just to firstly talk to you about a movie I watched on the plane on the way back, that was very eye opening and I related to it SO much. It was literally by chance that I watched this movie because the movies were playing up and some weren't playing properly etc, so we only had a few we had left to pick from. It was called a Miracle From Heaven - and it was about this young girl who was normal, healthy, active etc and then suddenly she began falling ill, being sick, stomach bloating up - making her look pregnant, stomach aches that were crippling ( all things I could relate to ) she went to the doctor, who sent her to the hospital where she had to be fed by a tube because her body was rejecting all foods and her stomach just couldn't digest any foods. The doctors couldn't understand why, and they worked out after weeks of tests that she had a incurable disease along with allergies - all this meant eventually she would die because her body would break down, she would reject all food even liquid food and liquids because of these allergies and this disease slowly getting worse. Of course her parents were shocked and had no idea what to do or how to take it. There was the option of transplants but they were hard to come by. The young girl became very depressed unable to eat proper food, she would sit at the table with family and friends with her tube, watching them enjoy her favourite foods. Her Mum was travelling to Boston, via planes every week for specialist treatment to try and help with the pain and discomfort. This went on and the little girl began getting worse not necessarily the disease getting worse but her mental state, her exhaustion with it all, she was always bloated looking like she was pregnant so she hated herself and began refusing to go out and to go to school because she was so worried what other's were saying and she felt so disgusted with her looks and body. Then one day she had a fall - and banged her head badly in the woods whilst playing with her sister. It sent her to hospital and her Mum was of course panicking like made because she was already so weak. Yet the girl began making a recovery - not just with her head injury but her digestive health was improving. She began improving a lot. She was began being added to eat blended foods like soups etc and improved slowly over months and months but each day was a little better. Doctors couldn't work out what or how this was happening and her family were just so relieved. In the end the doctors realised her home, she still had intolerance to some foods, but she was begin to be able to eat for herself again - something the doctors had said would never happen again and although she was still having alot of pain it was manageable for her.
I felt it showed that no of us know what is round the corner so that we should live for today but also like myself, although I have always struggled with certain foods but never really addressed the problems properly and then all of a sudden my body really did begin rejecting foods out of the blue - and the film proves allergies and diseases do just hit you and how hard it is to adapt to it all, the stress on the individual and the family, the time, treatment and effort that has to be be invested into making life bearable. This really hit me and of course I had already made my aim to help other's suffering from the same kind of problems in anyway I can but hopefully by sharing my recipes I have worked so hard on, I can make people who are plagued by allergies food issues, the chance to enjoy foods again, be able to 'eat' things they enjoy and versions of their favourite foods that they miss so much, so sitting with family and friends is no longer an issue and life is just a little better for them. It has inspired me to try harder to succeed in this goal. We can't let these issues we are faced with destroy us. I know personally I feel the experience I have gone through has tried to destroy me and I do feel it has taken alot from me - but I am refusing for it to take anymore and am fighting back SO hard. As I refuse to be defeated.
Of course Matthew has helped me see it this way too - throughout the holiday was faced so many blips and each time we both sat there and tried to make the negatives into positives instantly so that we didn't let anything spoil our limited time and once in a lifetime experience and that's what we need to do everyday. Yes you are allowed to have a cry and believe me I did, but I would have a cry, Matthew would give me a pep talk and we would move on and focus on something else more positive or realise something good out of the bad situation that was bothering us.
And after being so ill off most of the foods out there with it all being fried, they don't have any laws or strict laws on cross-contaminating foods which for allergies is a NIGHTMARE, and everything is full artificial chemicals - my gums are irritated by them all. It was getting me down but now like my Mum and Matthew have said again I can use these negatives I have experienced as a positive to help others and educate you all with options, advice etc. Though I won't say too much on my upcoming book, will TRY and keep all ideas unwrapped and secret so you can all get excited like I will be for the finished project! EEEEXCITING.
And seeing the Barnes and Noble in Oklahoma, Las Vegas and LA has just pumped up and inspired me to help as many people as I can across the world, with help, knowledge and good foods!
So lots of exciting projects on the horizon and I am very excited about them and after jeg lag passes I am ready to take them on!
I hope you have enjoyed watching my and Matthew's journey on YouTube throughout our trip and we will be making more videos for you on our trip. We want to make them good though so jut give us abit of time for those.
Thank you all for your on going support and please keep spreading the buzz #sophantastic everyone deserves to live the life they want and should be able to enjoy it like they want too, enjoying good healing foods along the way!
LOVE AND PEACE.
And a final thank you to Matthew for being the best travel partner and of course Matthew and my Mum for inspiring me everyday and pumping me up to keep improving myself, blossoming and giving me on going support everyday!!! Truly grateful.