My heart is battered,
Like glass I shattered,
The castle I built so tall,
It’s destruction I was unable to stall,
I feel the burning in my veins,
The pressure in my head feels like I have been hit by a number of trains,
The sickness of heartbreak is real,
Evermore the poison I feel,
How can I go on?
How much longer do I have to be strong?
Where is the sunshine and the rest?
Everyday I give nothing but my best,
Tears stain my face,
The challenge I always try to embrace,
To simply dress,
Is more than you will ever know,
Struggle on my face I will try never to show,
Bacteria eating my mind,
Myself I continue to try and find,
Help and my heart I will always give,
With myself no matter what I can’t forgive,
My efforts never enough,
A war against my body,
A war with myself to be somebody,
Am I enough?
Am I tough?
The questions I always ask myself everyday,
Hoping to find the answers in some way,
The endless pain,
The storm with endless rain,
May take a while,
I’ll just find my crown,
Nobody will know of your real struggle around town,
My life isn’t my dream,
A one man team,
Lonely and cold,
On to anything I will hold,
Hoping for better days but planning for the worst,
Thoughts - into tears make me burst,
A life so easy, fun and flowing,
I watch others glowing,
My light dimmed and flickering in the shadows so hard to see,
Out of the cage - I shout to be free,
My life is my journey and me,
Whether or not it’s enough - I did the best I could being me.