Doctor - look at all the red flags you have missed,
To complex to get your head around,
Everything comes around,
Now - is the time to get a grip,
Before many more continue to slip,
You see my rash,
To the door you dash,
You see my low temperature and roll your eyes,
No- you don’t see my cries,
You are depressed,
Now, now don't get me stressed,
We are lucky I am up and dressed,
Are you trying to make me distressed?
My heart aches,
The smiles are all fakes,
Hit after hit my confidence takes,
The pill bottle in my bag shakes,
I lay down as you examine me,
What do you see in me?
A girl who loves to cause trouble to you,
I know you can see my illness too,
You chose to ignore,
I’m not collapsed on the floor,
I am well,
Struggling in pain can’t you tell?
I am still alive,
But can I survive?
Record my symptoms - don’t just throw the notes in the bin,
You won’t win,
Medial bills up to my eyes,
My body cries,
At war with itself that going on and on,
The bacteria taking over my body to become number one,
Ignorance isn’t bliss,
How can you miss,
The warning signs right here and now,
Where do we go from here?
I know you just want me to disappear,
Hold me up and walk me out,
Read my notes and tell me I am well - you have no doubt,
Unknown to you,
What I really go through,
My trust has gone,
As I battle on,
I hold my breathe and fight behind the scenes everyday,
I will find a way,
Look at me and say,
You think there is a game I play,
If only we did,
In the shadows I hid,
I won’t go away,
I will always fight in some way,
My lungs feel like they are filling up and I can’t breathe,
My pain - please just relieve,
Doctor, doctor can’t you see,
The pain harbouring inside of me?
I don’t want to bother you,
I want to see life through,
I am alone and I know I must fight without you,
I screamed out for you,
I cry when I see you,
Hoping you will know what to do,
Never living up to what I thought of you,
I don’t underestimate all you do,
So many suffering in so many ways,
Doing as the industry says,
Keeping to protocol and guidelines,
Read between the lines,
I see your pain too,
I am trying to help you,
In the long term make your work easier for you,
All I get told is that I am insane,
Walk in my shoes and feel my pain,
Help me and you pull through,
People are different and people need real help,
We scream out with a yelp,
Battling in the shadows- day and night,
We continue to fight,
Doctor, doctor can’t you see,
Please help me,
I hold my hand out to you,
Let's see this battle together - all the way through.
Feeling sluggish and rubbish when you have woken up? Get boosting up on bananas the more the better - they will help settle your stomach, boosting digestion, they are a mood enhancer, they will give you the energy you need and keep you full. Buy my book for banana receipe ideas.
Wake up every morning and ATLEAST have one glass of lemon water before doing anything else! Ideally try to drink a litre of water. The lemon wakes up your digestive system ready for the day and has great cleansing properties.
Check your dairy and meat intake - dairy can sit in your system for up to seven days unable to digest properly. Meaning other foods also get neglected and nurtients aren't absorbed properly and you feel extremely bloated. Go and smell your food bin, your stomach will be in that state. Rotting foods in your belly - hmm nice.
DO NOT FEAR CARBS - THEY ARE NOT THE ENEMY! CARB UP!!
Bananas, Rice, Potatoes, Leafy Greens, Corn, Beans, Lentils etc PACK THEM IN GO MAD.
NEVER COUNT CALORIES - NEVER RESTRICT!! These restriction 'starvation' diets who tell you to only eat 500 calories a day then have a treat day - where you binge out and eat WAY too much, is simply messing up your metabolism and on your binge days yours body stores all the fat meaning you gain weight because it knows it is going to go back into starvation mode and needs to hold onto every little thing it can. HELLO WEIGHT GAIN.
Life is too short not to live it to the full, making yourself happy.