Poetry Sunday - Pain

December 23, 2018

 

 

I watch through glass and the fog, 

Sharing my experiences on my blog, 

Life is far away, 

I am too exhausted to play, 

Out in the cold, 

There is a story that has been left untold, 

Watching chaos unfold, 

Never one to be confident and bold, 

Lost in a room, 

My heart fills with gloom, 

Here I sit, 

I can't do my bit, 

Pain, 

Makes you insane, 

Invisible to the eye, 

In so much pain I cry, 

Exhausted and tired, 

All my bullets have been fired, 

Worn down and no longer here, 

Waiting to disappear, 

I know Christmas is near, 

I will enjoy with loved ones I hold dear, 

I live in fear, 

That I can't keep fighting this battle here, 

Lost in a fog, 

To keep my sanity I blog, 

More health complications is my Christmas present, 

I just have to live in the present, 

My heart I have shared, 

To those that have cared, 

Half the person I used to be, 

You look straight through me, 

Sadness eats me inside and out, 

Somehow I still manage to get up and about, 

The struggle is more than I will ever show, 

I am struggling I just want you to know, 

I am quiet but inside I am dying, 

Over the weeks I have done too much crying, 

I will always smile, 

Being normal? It has been a while, 

I seem a bore, 

From myself I hope for more, 

The pain too great, 

Who know's what may be my fate, 

Wanting to be a part of life so badly but never fitting in, 

Where do I begin, 

For now I survive, 

The infections inside me thrive, 

Half the person I hoped to be, 

I am sorry - I am not the real me, 

Hibernation is for me, 

I am realising keeping up and fitting in with life is getting harder for me, 

Tear stain my face, 

I must learn to pace, 

My heart still has a beat, 

In too much pain to stand on my feet, 

Christmas time is here, 

I guess I just need to be here.

 

Sophie

xoxo

 

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SOPHIE'S
COOKING TIPS

#1
Feeling sluggish and rubbish when you have woken up? Get boosting up on bananas the more the better - they will help settle your stomach, boosting digestion, they are a mood enhancer, they will give you the energy you need and keep you full. Buy my book for banana receipe ideas.
 
#2
Wake up every morning and ATLEAST have one glass of lemon water before doing anything else! Ideally try to drink a litre of water. The lemon wakes up your digestive system ready for the day and has great cleansing properties.
 
#3
Check your dairy and meat intake - dairy can sit in your system for up to seven days unable to digest properly. Meaning other foods also get neglected and nurtients aren't absorbed properly and you feel extremely bloated. Go and smell your food bin, your stomach will be in that state. Rotting foods in your belly - hmm nice.
 
#4
DO NOT FEAR CARBS - THEY ARE NOT THE ENEMY! CARB UP!!
Bananas, Rice, Potatoes, Leafy Greens, Corn, Beans, Lentils etc PACK THEM IN GO MAD.
 
#5
NEVER COUNT CALORIES - NEVER RESTRICT!! These restriction 'starvation' diets who tell you to only eat 500 calories a day then have a treat day - where you binge out and eat WAY too much, is simply messing up your metabolism and on your binge days yours body stores all the fat meaning you gain weight because it knows it is going to go back into starvation mode and needs to hold onto every little thing it can. HELLO WEIGHT GAIN. 

Life is too short not to live it to the full, making yourself happy.

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