So here we are a new year. Where does time go?
I look back at this time last year and I had no real plans. My world had been shaken up so much in 2017, I really didn't know what life had in store for me next. Being prepared or 'organised' didn't seem to work. I couldn't have predicted how my life had and was planning out to be. So I didn't for the first time EVER have any real resolutions or goals for 2018. This led to 2018 being one of the best years of my life so far. I have so many plans and dreams for 2019 that I am almost worried about writing down and setting them into place because I don't want my life to feel derailed again. I have bounced back time and time again but each time it really does get harder. I know many would have expected me to surrender and give up the fight, just allow life to pass me by last year and I did the exact opposite. It is purely not in my DNA to just watch life and 'settle'. I am always looking to better myself, helping others around me and achieving. I hope I have proven that but also inspired many too. I have never stopped believing that we are all put on this Earth for a reason, but often the reason is so difficult to find when you are stuck in a haze. I always used to get upset and frustrated when I would work so hard but things just wouldn't seem to fall into place. Whether it was career wise, health or friendships. Sometimes no matter how much effort, time and work we put into something, it simply isn't meant to be or the timing is off. Having to learn to let things go, things happen and learn the art of acceptance is a huge life lesson and a step towards inner happiness. Succeeding is great but just like material things, the buzz is short-lived. The deeper roots where the seeds are planted is where really happiness comes from.
Knowing we only had ONE life and ONE shot used to be the key reason for my unhappiness because it would be all panic stations when I felt I had wasted time, things hadn't happened when I had planned, and things hadn't worked out. I didn't have a replay button. I couldn't re-write the script to my story and make it the way I believed I wanted it and it should be. You never really get taught these lessons, you have to weather through the storms to understand them.
I hold many regrets in life and we all will do. That is life. It is truly pointless re-winding in your mind how you would have done things differently because we can't move backwards, only forwards. So we have to live and learn.
Life is the toughest challenge, any of us will ever take on! It is BEYOND tough, often upsetting but is also the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow. Society lead us to believe we have to walk a certain path to be successful, 'fit in' and normal when really it is the polar-opposite. Madness is genius. Standing out from the crowd gets you ahead and nobody can ever fit the definition of normal because we are all unique. We become far happier in ourselves and in our lives when we look beyond the surface. We have to follow our hearts, keep a positive mindset, exercise our talents and showcase our skills. With that package we can dance through any rain storm and come out stronger. I am not saying its a free-pass to an easy life, it just helps brighten life. After-all gratitude is the attitude. We have to appreciate that the low moments make us thankful for the highs and we have to weather the storms to enjoy the sun. Our trains can derail, be delayed or pull in to another platform but that doesn't mean we have to stop fighting for what we believe in, feeding our hearts and souls and chasing our dreams.
We must keep an open mind, be open to new people, new possibilities and new challenges.
The last few years have taught me a lot and I know there is a lot more work and learning to be done. I feel better equipped emotionally, maybe not physically but I think it is a massive advantage being stronger emotionally. I'm turning 25 in just over a week. In many ways I feel far older than my years and feel like a cat with nine lives. On the other hand, I still have so much more I want to do, hope to achieve and leave even deeper footprints on the Earth.
Who knows what the future has in store, for any of us. All we have is now. NOW. We just need to keep fire in our bellies, love in our hearts and a head full of dreams.
CHEERS TO 2019...