Last week was very special in a number of ways and I so grateful for the opportunities which occurred last week. Moving into a new week my focus as ever is on, 'WHAT'S NEXT?'
There is so much I wish to do and only wish I had more time, energy and a magic carpet to get me to A to B. We talk often about being stuck in a box. My mind, I never allow to be trapped but health although we can always adapt, work around and come to some solution you are still restricted in many ways.
I miss so much being able to jump into a car and go, go anywhere. Anywhere I needed to go, needed to be. Often just an escape route, for a different change of scene. A lot of my ideas struggle to get off the drawing board because of this. There is, like I have already said, so much I want to do. Relying on others is the worst. You feel guilty constantly for putting them out. Which in turns causes you to shy away from doing what your heart wants. This doesn't help your mental state. I am lucky to have a supportive family but it still doesn't mean I don't feel the awful heavy weight of never ending guilt.
I watched a video on goal setting and how to achieve your dreams. You can sit on ideas or wait for the sun to shine, the time is always NOW. I often get myself all fired up, stressed and often up-tight because I am so determined to make a goal become a success. I can't get my head around people who seem to be so laid back, but yet are still massively successful. I know I am just one person and single-handedly can't change the world. Often I want to help in so many ways and it isn't humanly possible, by anyone's standards. I am not professional, far from it. I learn on the job. Everything I create, put in place and plan is always just powered by love. Powered by the level of support from loved ones, the community, fellow sufferers, readers and followers. My achievements often don't level up to my ideals and 'standards' and maybe that is why I often find it hard to take a moment to enjoy and celebrate the victories. Something I try to encourage others to do. I am lucky to have the advice and support of my family, friends and loved ones. Their ideas, problem solving and all-round support is essential to me and the my word. To them I am forever grateful and I only hope they feel a part of the Sophantastic family and achievements.
I promised to add sparkle to this year and we are only 3 months in. It will be an exciting year and already has been in so many ways. I hope to keep finding solutions to my problems and finding new, exciting ways to not only help in my own healing but others too.
It really is the truth when people say, 'You only understand once you go through it yourself.' Everything I have learnt through my own experiences has inspired, motivated and sparked ideas off for my dreams and goals. Sometimes I worry this is selfish way to construct a goal. Yes, helping myself is amazing but it isn't the sole-purpose. Helping others is. I am just able to feel, understand and know what is needed to help others because I know what helps aid my own struggles.
I get mad at people at times for not trying to understand or listen to people. People are often stuck in their own little bubble. Driven by money, power and success. They forget to think of others, put themselves in the shoes of other people or dedicate the time to people. They are 'too busy,' 'have to much on,' or simply close their ear to information about others.
None of my work or ventures personally make me any money, I donate any money I am kindly given through media work, we host fundraisers which of course all goes to my two chosen charities and products sold are sold at the lowest and best price possible because for me it is about the products helping others, bringing others joy and making life a little brighter for them. Life is HARD and it is even HARDER with chronic illness. With everything I have learnt from my journey so far, I have come a long way. I have realised I am not alone, I have found my voice, made friends and become more at peace with myself. I want to encourage others to do the same in anyway I can. I think it is so rewarding to see someone blossom who for so long has felt alone, invisible and isolated.
I think it is important to be truthful about my goals, why I set them the way that I do and what purpose they do have. We sadly live in a world that is extremely judgemental and who do jump to conclusions. We are often quick to see the bad in others, be negative and so forth. We should be each others cheerleaders, look to supporting others in anyway we can. Often the free gifts and ways to offer support are the best: a quick message, a phone call, supporting an event, celebrating an achievement. We can always be looking for ways to improve ourselves but also help others improve themselves too. People sometimes just need a good dose of love, support and confidence booster for them to see the world in a little bit of a brighter light and inspire them to find the courage to break free out of the box.
So, with a new week begins a new page. A page that needs filling with positivity and how we can improve going forward. We must try to make peace with the guilt. Put our losses and grieve to bed because we must look forward and focus on what lies ahead. It is important to always keep plans to keep you excited and focused. Our life is ours. I know in many ways it is restricted because of our illnesses or circumstances but we have to learn to drill holes in walls and celebrate the good we are lucky to have. Helping others is so rewarding and it is one of the strongest and best doses of medicine we can give ourselves and others.
I encourage you all to always believe in yourselves and stay true to you.