Poetry Sunday- Keeping Fighting

June 16, 2019

 

Keeping Fighting

 

Sorry I haven’t written,

I hope I can be forgiven,

The pain inside,

Is too much to hide,

Life has become harder to battle through,

I wouldn’t wish this hell on you,

 

Trapped in a cage,

I am only a young age,

But for life I can’t see,

Any freedom for me,

Pushing each and every day,

It gets harder in every way,

 

Sick to my stomach and foggy in my mind,

A relief I am trying to find,

I can talk to you,

I may not make sense to you,

How can I describe this, 

The old me I know you miss,

 

I miss her too, 

I hold on to you,

To lift me up and motivate me every day,

I feel guilty I must say,

For the help I need,

My soul I try to feed,

 

With positives and light,

To keep alive the fight,

Out by ten,

Up at three am and then,

The nights scare,

The days in terms of pain can often compare,

 

No holiday or peace in sight, 

I cry most of the night,

All I want is this pain to ease,

I am so sorry that I can’t often please,

It kills me to be such a drain,

Always seeming to bring the rain,

 

I try to deal,

With the pain that is so real,

I hide away,

I don’t want you to see me in this way,

Destroyed by the disease I fight every day,

Why shouldn’t I be fine is every way, 

 

 

For this week,

Has been bleak,

I have scared myself silly and now,

Pushing through I am not sure how, 

The pain, fatigue and nausea just too much I admit,

I cry in confusion as I sit,

 

I am still breathing and am still here,

Even if I want to disappear, 

My podcasts still play in your ear,

Know the next episode is being recorded very near,

Your support to me,

Means the world in every sense you see,

 

Despite the pain,

All the rain, 

I want to keep up my work because that is what powers my fight,

Keeping my goals in sight,

Just know - you drive me through and through,

I am so thankful to you, 

 

My health is at a scary time,

It crushes me to the core when I should be in my prime,

We fight on,

As we blink and time has gone,

 

I have to adapt & keep fighting hard,

My own soul I can’t discard,

Back to the drawing board as plans are written,

It was all so much easier before I was bitten,

We need goals to keep our minds inspired, 

Even if we feel out of the game or that we have retired,

 

We have to get up and make the most of the day,

Cherish the special moments in every way,

Pain can taint,

But don’t allow yourself to faint, 

For all we have is now,

Dealing with the future - I am not sure how,

 

Thank you for your support during these upsetting periods in time, 

I watch the clock as it continues to chime,

So many moments still left to have before o go,

More than I ever did know, 

 

To fighting on,

To cherishing moments before they have go,

Soothe your soul,

This disease takes it’s toll, 

I cry as I write,

But I am still keeping my goals in sight. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Sophie 

Xoxo

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SOPHIE'S
COOKING TIPS

#1
Feeling sluggish and rubbish when you have woken up? Get boosting up on bananas the more the better - they will help settle your stomach, boosting digestion, they are a mood enhancer, they will give you the energy you need and keep you full. Buy my book for banana receipe ideas.
 
#2
Wake up every morning and ATLEAST have one glass of lemon water before doing anything else! Ideally try to drink a litre of water. The lemon wakes up your digestive system ready for the day and has great cleansing properties.
 
#3
Check your dairy and meat intake - dairy can sit in your system for up to seven days unable to digest properly. Meaning other foods also get neglected and nurtients aren't absorbed properly and you feel extremely bloated. Go and smell your food bin, your stomach will be in that state. Rotting foods in your belly - hmm nice.
 
#4
DO NOT FEAR CARBS - THEY ARE NOT THE ENEMY! CARB UP!!
Bananas, Rice, Potatoes, Leafy Greens, Corn, Beans, Lentils etc PACK THEM IN GO MAD.
 
#5
NEVER COUNT CALORIES - NEVER RESTRICT!! These restriction 'starvation' diets who tell you to only eat 500 calories a day then have a treat day - where you binge out and eat WAY too much, is simply messing up your metabolism and on your binge days yours body stores all the fat meaning you gain weight because it knows it is going to go back into starvation mode and needs to hold onto every little thing it can. HELLO WEIGHT GAIN. 

Life is too short not to live it to the full, making yourself happy.

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